Archive for the ‘mental’ Category
Sunday, August 31st, 2008
As much as I don't want to date someone who is like me (neurotic, depressed, anxious, agoraphobic, et cetera), sometimes it's frustrating to be with someone whose brain chemicals are in the right places. It's like he won't ever understand what it's like in my head. But then again, I'm ...
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Saturday, August 23rd, 2008
Rich people find people who knew them when they were poor; I wish Nate met me now, when I'm so discombobulated, and still could fall in love with me.
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Saturday, August 23rd, 2008
Right shoulder MRI
So here's what I did on Wednesday. It was terrifying, but not because of the noise or the tightness (neither was as bad as I remembered), but more because I'm an idiot who knows just enough about any given subject to be dangerous. In this instance, it's because ...
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Wednesday, August 13th, 2008
I don't know if I'm on edge because my arm hurts, or if it's something more ...
I can't take any sort of criticism without taking it as a personal attack.
I can't make any joke without hurting someone unintentionally.
Two days ago I cried because I couldn't shake a feeling of complete ...
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Monday, May 26th, 2008
Pictures are up at flickr; let me know if things are fucked up over there. I was adjusting things with it last night when I was super jet lagged and I think I'd been up for like 27 hours or something, but my math might be wrong. Time zones confuse ...
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Saturday, April 12th, 2008
I know, I know, the payoff amount will be affected by compounding interest and the like, but I couldn't help myself. I always make a $400 payment anyway, so why not make it $405.74?
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Saturday, April 5th, 2008
Kaity once knew someone who had a seizure anytime she heard Stevie Nicks. No joke. I couldn't make something like that up.
Some people have auras before they have an epileptic seizure. They see things or hear things or smell things. I've heard of someone who smelled burned toast.
Kaity and I ...
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Wednesday, April 2nd, 2008
I have posts sitting in my drafts, and I doubt they'll ever be published. I thought I should disclose that, for some reason.
I hate thinking about money. It makes me sick. I don't know if you caught that general theme of the last few days.
I think there's something wrong with ...
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Sunday, March 23rd, 2008
Dew, I guess you're right that I couldn't have found out about Marcus without trying it. I just find it frustrating that I wasted so much of my (and his) time.
I feel more like myself when I'm with Nate. Not so much like I might be able to stop taking ...
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Thursday, March 13th, 2008
I'll never forgive myself for telling Marcus that I loved him before it was true. The thing is, I thought that by saying it, maybe the feelings would be true. And I wanted to be in love so much. I wanted to not be in love with Ian. I wanted ...
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Wednesday, February 20th, 2008
So tonight on the way home from Nate's/Uno's/eclipse-watching, I realized that I have been so focused on how rotten I was feeling over the last week or so, that it had become pity. Ugh. I haven't pitied myself like that since college & the whole suicidal Creighton fiasco.
[Tangent: I'm wicked ...
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Tuesday, February 19th, 2008
What is it with today? I just want to go to bed and not be around anyone for a week. I don't think I can process everything and not scream, let alone work, tomorrow.
It started out with dropping Marcus off at the airport this morning. After getting ...
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Wednesday, February 13th, 2008
I have been spoiled by Paulie not waking me up. I slept until 1030 this morning. Oh well. It was too good a dream to interrupt with silly things like productivity or initiative. Psh.
I had a doctor's appointment this afternoon. Everything is awesome, except my insulin levels are still ...
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Wednesday, January 30th, 2008
Results for diana j
January 30, 2008
Your Total "Adultness" Competency Score is 88%
Love 89%
Sex 89%
Leadership 100%
Problem Solving 100%
Physical Abilities 33%
Verbal & Math Skills 100%
Interpersonal Skills 89%
Handling Responsibility 67%
Managing High Risk Behaviors 100%
Managing Work & Money 89%
Education 89%
Personal Care 100%
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Sunday, January 27th, 2008
Marcus said something incredibly insightful about geeks today, something I meant to write down right away so I could think about it some more. Unfortunately, I forgot about it until I just read something on WWDN.
It's too bad, too, because you would have thought I was clever and shit.
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Sunday, January 20th, 2008
Tonight, as I was driving to Kaity's, I didn't know how to drive. It was only for a few seconds, at the most. Only long enough for me to realize that I was in a car, driving, and I had no idea how to operate it. And ...
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Friday, January 18th, 2008
It's very frustrating when I am trying to explain a test to a patient or tell a story or have a conversation and I can't stop tripping over my words. I've been stammering and stuttering more and more as of late. This last week has been particularly bad. ...
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Wednesday, January 2nd, 2008
Getting abducted by aliens: pretty much my worst nightmare. I don't know why I'm so afraid of it, but I am.
I thought of something the other day, though.
If you were abducted by aliens, even if no one ever believed you, at least you would know there's life elsewhere in ...
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Monday, December 31st, 2007
I've always put off New Year's Resolutions until March. My birthday's in March; I figure I can get away with my newest year being close enough to everyone else's. This year I feel like doing something different. Next December 31st, there are a few things I want ...
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Tuesday, November 6th, 2007
Everyone seems to focus on "When does life begin?", especially when they're involved in the abortion debate. Today I wished I could say for certain that I knew when it ends.Wikipedia lists several options for when death is pronounced. It used to be defined as cessation of breathing ...
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