From: me@gmail.com
To: mom@work.com
Date: Tue, Oct 21, 2008 at 1254
Subject: Fwd: Hi, I’m a new ML in Maine. Want to get together to write our novels?

I just got this email from the “municipal liasion”. Is it awful of me to wonder what quality her novel is going to be, if this is her email? I’m such a snob :P

———- Forwarded message ———-
From: her@gmail.com
Date: Oct 21, 2008 12:41am
Subject: Hi, I’m a new ML in Maine. Want to get together to write our novels?
To: me@gmail.com

Hello! Salutations! I am ms.read here on the forums. this is not your usual nanomail from the prestigious Chris Baty wishing you a warm welcome into writing glorious novels. I’m just the newest of the Municipal Liasions Kicking you  into high gear and prodding out of your apartment/house/cave to come join me in Saco, Maine at the Dyer library for Tuesday Write Ins during the month of November.

I am throwing a Kick Off Brunch Oct 31, at The Golden Rooster from 930am to 1100am To Celebrate this Awesomeness!
This is your official invitation! :)

If you would like to hear more about it, feel free to reply to me at anytime.  Please forgive any blunderings I make during my virginal year as an ML. Thank you very much in your participation.

I look forward to hearing from you!
ms.read

> This email was sent by a NaNoWriMo Municipal Liaison in the ‘United States :: Maine’
> region using a blind mail forwarding system. Municipal Liaisons are never
> given direct access to your contact information. To turn off these
> emails, you will have to unaffiliate from this group. Go to your Region
> Management page at http://www.nanowrimo.org/og/my and click “My
> Membership” to the right of your region’s name, then click “Leave this
> group.” Any troubles, just drop us a line with the name of the region
> you would like to leave. http://www.nanowrimo.org/generalcontact

So I might not have been so confident in my ability to let things roll off my back had I read the letter before writing the previous post.

I’m going to bed. I’m sorry I can’t listen to your show, Axl. I am not so good with knowing what time it is lately.

So tonight on the way home from Nate’s/Uno’s/eclipse-watching, I realized that I have been so focused on how rotten I was feeling over the last week or so, that it had become pity. Ugh. I haven’t pitied myself like that since college & the whole suicidal Creighton fiasco.

[Tangent: I'm wicked dizzy right now. Like I get when I have a not-for-a-week cigarette, only I haven't.]

So I decided that I don’t have to feel like this. I can just take everything that’s been said about me in the last week or so in stride and not really care about how it was supposed to make me feel. And hopefully this will make me more fun to be around, since I have been absolutely rotten to people, and it’s just been getting worse.

Also stupid. It’s been an off-week.

But even if I can’t shake the stupids for a while (it’s even like my muscles got stupid – I missed veins left and right today), I can change my attitude. As much as I like being able to bitch about work with Kaity, I don’t actually like doing it. I feel … gossipy. And more than a little crass. I’m not going to stop, mind you. I think it’s good to have a place to vent, and also if Kaity needs it, I want to be available for her venting. But tonight it didn’t feel as good as it usually does.

But back to me for a moment, I decided that I would go ahead and read whatever it was that Marcus emailed me. If I don’t like what he has to say, it doesn’t much matter because he really is about as much out of my life as a person can get. Just like when people ask me what he’s going to be doing in Hawaii for money/car/living arrangements/whatever, I can tell them that it’s not my problem anymore.

Being afraid of getting hurt by something he said is not a good reason to avoid it. It’s like LETTIN’ THE TERRISTS WIN

It wouldn’t be right to post someone else’s emails, but I’m happy to share my end of them. Any holes in the middle are your problem ;)

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d to Momma 9:25 am (10 hours ago)
I had a dream last night that was SO vivid, and you were pregnant.
Dad was actually pretty cool about it, too, but I think that was the
tipoff that I was only dreaming.

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Momma to me 1:46 pm (6 hours ago)
Weird! I dreamt the same thing!!!

Dad and I talked about it a long time ago, and he said that if it happened
after all we’ve done to prevent it, then it was meant to be….. So he will
be cool with it.

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d to Momma 6:31 pm (1½ hours ago)
I don’t know how I knew, but I knew you’d say you had the same dream.