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crazy talk

As much as I don’t want to date someone who is like me (neurotic, depressed, anxious, agoraphobic, et cetera), sometimes it’s frustrating to be with someone whose brain chemicals are in the right places. It’s like he won’t ever understand what it’s like in my head. But then again, I’m really glad he doesn’t know first hand, because it’s awful. I just get frustrated. That’s all I’m saying.

I also realized that Marcus’ inability to have other friends or depend on anyone but me was a huge stressor on our relationship and OH MY FUCK I’m doing the same thing to Nate and I feel like a shithead for doing it. And also for blaming it on [PMS, no meds, _______]