can’t sleep
| May 16th, 2007 at 0:57 |My car needs maintenance done and it’s going to be $300-$400. Besides my student loans, I’ve got one bill left to pay off, but it went so long that now I’ve got bill collectors calling me.
Between my hormones being fucked from this PCOS bullshit and getting fat & tired from my insulin levels being out of whack for the last year+ … I’m terrified that everything that was wrong with Marcus and I was because I was too fucked up to fix anything and that I ruined what could have been a very good thing. I’m scared that I’ll never be able to say with certainty that this was the right thing to do.
It’s taking everything I have to not call him and beg him for another chance. To let me get oriented with my medication and really try to do this right.
