chlamydia and gonorrhea
| June 27th, 2006 at 21:51 |Those were what the last culture was testing for. They came back negative (obviously). I went to my doctor in follow up, and he did another urine dip and sent the rest off for culture. Another negative dip, the culture hasn’t come back yet.
I broke down and actually cried when I asked him if he thought it would be okay to stop all the other tests for a while. I’m tired of everything coming back negative and feeling like it’s all in my head. We agreed that the only thing I haven’t had yet is a HIDA scan, and I don’t know why my gastroenterologist refused to do it. He ordered one for me, and after that, I’m done. Fuck. I’m always and forever going to feel like shit. I don’t know why I’m wasting my money and their time on this.
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Last night my stomach hurt, and I tried to make it to sleep before it got any worse. It didn’t work so well. I couldn’t lay down, I couldn’t stand up, I couldn’t sit still. It hurt to do anything. I took another one of my pain pills I got in the ER. It still hurt, but at least I went to sleep (about half an hour, maybe 45 minutes later). I was trying to avoid taking one, because Monday I felt kinda hungover/still intoxicated. So much for that plan.
I’m a fucking train wreck. I’m just so tired of feeling sick all the time. I just want to do my job.
